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I'm just an average teenage girl...
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the one that stands in the corner of the room
and watches people interact...
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the one that always seems to brighten up someones
mood no matter what she was feeling.
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the one that's hiding behind a fake smile hoping
no one will hear her cries at night..
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Love,
Miss A

allah is always by my side!!

Kali ini mentari redup awan pun kelam ,menahan tangis hujan..
Sunyi terkadang menjadi mentari , terkadang menjadi syair ,terkadang menjadi gerak, terkadang juga membekukan kalbu..
biarkan aku menyatu bersama alam..
menari bersama hembusan angin yg sunyi...
kesemuanya tentang sunyi...
Ya Allah temani aku ketika kesunyian ini..




pesanan pd mereka yg sedang bersedih "Teruskanlah menangis, 
tapi kalau sudah selesai menangisinya..
senyumlah...
kerana senyuman adalah sebuah pengakuan atas kenikmatan...
kita tak bisa melihat indahnya pelangi tanpa hujan..
hujan dulu baru pelangi..
kesusahan jirannya kesenangan...

ini bukan cerita hantu

assalamualikum..
rasa macam kaku jerk jari ni nak menaip..
lama dh tak update blog kn, kn,kn..
makin lama, makin malas..
xtvt padat, jadi nya kalau nk upadate seminggu sekali , mau muntah korang nk baca xtvt aku.. hihihi


aku nk cite kisah aku hari ni..
tajuk tak ada kaitan dgn entry ek, tetibe jerk tertulis tajuk tu..
hari ni aku balik umah..
as usual kan, every week aku balik..
kamis balik kuantan, sabtu balik dungun smula..
tiap2 minggu, itulah rutin aku..

bila balik , aku selalu beli tiket on the spot..
kire time tu nk balik, time tu beli tiket..
tp leceh sbb kena pujok2 pakcik bwk van tu suh antar cepat..

ha cite sal van..
kitaorg nk kuar ke bandar, van je lah yg banyak..
bas susah nk dpt, pak cik perebet aku tak kenal..
van je lah yg senang, van kuning yg ada tulis 'bas sekolah' tu..
tp leceh satulah..pakcik2 van tu, nk tunggu satu van penuh baru dia nk jalan..
adoiii, silap2 nk tunggu penoh, blh terlepas bas..tsk tsk tsk

continuee *ayat fav lecture rekabentuk struktur aku..
nk cite ape ek td??
owhh kisah balik hari ni kn..
kebetulan smlm aku g byr yuran muet*muetohmuet.. , pahtu g beli tiket nk balik cuti mid sem next week so aku beli lah tiket utk ari ni tros..aku dh pesan kat akak tu aku tunggu depan poly jerk..
mls nk berkejar ke stsen bas..

aku pun tunggu lah kat bustop dpan poly tuh..
dari jam 2.30 aku tunggu...
dh macam2 ragam org aku duk telek, fon aku pun dh nk abis bateri aku duk main game..
sebelah aku ade sorang laki..
duk tunggu mcm aku lah tp aku tak tahu dia tunggu ape..
aku mmg confirm laki tu bdk poly..

dari jauh aku nmpk bas wane merah, aku mmg ingat bas yang aku naik tu dh sbb bas tu colour merah..kebetulan aku tak pkai spek so mana nk nmpak tulisan kat bas tu.. ai rabun ok, u all..hahah
aku beria bgn, galas beg laptop..laki sblh aku tu pun bgn jgk..
skali silap bas..adoii..aku duduk smula , sambung men game..

"awk naik bas **** jgk ke? " laki tu tanya..
"a'ah..lambat lah bas ni..dh dekat pkol 3.. "
"mmg selalu lambat er?"
"ntah, slalo sy naik kat stesen bas..kol 2.30 dh gerak tp bas ni kadang mmg sampai lmbt.."
potpet potpet.. duk borak-borak..
tetibe kawan dia tpon.. aku dgr dia ckp , dia balik nk jenguk anak n isteri..
bukan saje2 nk dgr tp kalau dh duk sblh, mmg tipu lah if tak dgr kn..

then lps tu aku duk kusyuk men game..
ade lah 2 org bdk laki ni lalu, dia tegur laki yang dkt bustop dgn aku tu.
"Assalamualikum...Cik, buat apa kat sini? "
aku pandang laki tu, cik!!apakahhhh..
"sy nk balik kampung, awk nk g mana ni?"
"sy nk g makan jap..balik mana cik?"
"balik temerloh.."
"owhh, takpelah cik.."

OMG, laki tu lecturer okeah.. jabatan mana aku tak tahu sbb lps tu aku diam jerk..
adoiii, aku dh borak td mcm membe jerk..mana tau tu lecturer..

ok, aku nk cite tu jerk..

p/s : nk tulis entry pun bosan, letrik kejap ade, kejap tak ada...ape masalah lah TNB ni..eh sy byr lah bil..

:)

"Jika kau merasa kecewa,
Pandanglah ke sungai,
Airnya mengalir biarpun,
Berjuta batu menghalang..

Jika kau merasa sedih,
Pandanglah ke langit,
Kau akan sedar bahawa
ALLAH SENTIASA BERSAMAMU.."

I can't seem to get over u..i've tried and tried..all these years it seems like i have wasted my time, but maybe, just maybe one day you'll notice me and feel the same way.. happily ever after..

lets sing a song with me :


How does she know you love her?How does she know she's yours?
How does she know that you love her?
How do you show her you love her?
How does she know that you really, really, truly love her?

It's not enough to take the one you love for granted
You must remind her, or she'll be inclined to say...
"How do I know he loves me?"
(How does she know that you love her?
How do you show her you love her?)
"How do I know he's mine?"
(How does she know that you really, really, truly love her?)

Well does he leave a little note to tell you you are on his mind?
Send you yellow flowers when the sky is grey? Heyy!
He'll find a new way to show you, a little bit everyday
That's how you know, that's how you know!
He's your love...

You've got to show her you need her
Don't treat her like a mind reader
Each day do something to need her
To believe you love her

Everybody wants to live happily ever after
Everybody wants to know their true love is true...
How do you know he loves you?
(How does she know that you love her?
How do you show her you need her?)
How do you know he's yours?
(How does she know that you really, really, truely-)

Well does he take you out dancin' just so he can hold you close?
Dedicate a song with words in
Just for you? Ohhh!

He'll find his own way to tell you
With the little things he'll do
That's how you know
That's how you know!

He's your love
He's your love...

That's how you know
He loves you
That's how you know
It's true

Because he'll wear your favorite color
Just so he can match your eyes
Rent a private picnic
By the fires glow-oohh!

All:
His heart will be yours forever
Something everyday will show
That's how you know
He's your love...

That's how she knows that you love her
That's how you show her you love her

That's how you know
That's how you know
He's your love

we need to feel more

We need to feel more to understand others..
We need to love more to be loved back...
We need to cry more to cleanse ourselves..
We need to laugh more to enjoy ourselves..

We need to establish the values of
honesty and fairness..
when interacting with people
We need to establish a strong ethical basis
as a way of life

We need to see more
than our own little fantasies...
We need to hear more
and listen to the needs of others..

We need to give more and take less..
We need to share more and own less..
We need to realize the importance of family
as a backbone to stability...
We need to look more
and realize that we are not so different
from one another..

We need to create a world where
we can all peacefully live
the life we choose
We need to create a world where
we can once again trust each other

Poem by Susan Polis Schutz